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i cant sleep. every nite i wake up through the whole nite. wish people had to ask permission before they enter your dreams. im angry and hurt. i think its what keeps me up all the time. today is going to be a long day. work and wedding rehearsal and dinner. gotta put on my happy face bc two of my best friends are getting married. i gotta be happy that someone is in mutual love. i wish i didnt feel like i was going to puke every five minutes. my nerves are so shot. im cant wait until monday. im ready for my new therapist. hoping she can shine some light on this dark time. cuz i feel like dying.